But why, when I can awkwardly blog about my issues to the internet?
I’m off to Nashville, but I’ve left you all this real gem of mental health specimen.
TRIGGER WARNING: PTSD and emotional abuse
1. I went camping a couple of weeks ago, and we went fishing, and I caught my first bass!! It was so much fun. I can’t wait to go camping/fishing again. I cooked the bass, and some crappie, for dinner, and it was so good.
2. My mom is getting here tonight! She’s going to be here almost two weeks, and I’ve got a lot of fun planned. We’re leaving for Nashville (#NashVegas) first thing in the morning, and going to see Eric Church two nights in a row. There will Loveless Cafe biscuits. There will be Biscuit Love biscuits. There will be craft beer. And a brazilian steakhouse. There will questionable WW food logging. It will be worth it.
3. I went to Washington, D.C. last week for some industry volunteering that I’m involved with, and the trip was awesome. We spent basically two days in teambuilding and training exercises, followed by a day of lobbying on Capitol Hill. I actually did some lobbying while I was in college, so it wasn’t totally new to me, but having a chance to speak on behalf of the aftermarket at the federal level was an honor.
While I was there, I went out for an “oops it was supposed to be 3” 5 mile run, all the way down the mall, from the capitol to the Lincoln monument. Beautiful – especially in the quiet of sunrise. I’m sure that the people who live there take it for granted, but it’s amazing. I’m a pretty patriotic person, but I think I hit new levels last week.
Here’s some shots from that run, and our Tennessee aftermarket representatives, ready to hit the Hill. If you’re into cars, make sure you check out the SEMA RPM Act site to super easily send letters to your legislators, and them know how important it is to their voter base.
These are the devil shoes that did me in….guess they should’ve been broken in…oops
Shout to the department of Agriculture for my mortgage!
WW is one thing I’ve definitely not slacked on in my blog absence. Gone every week, lost pretty much every week. Picked up a couple new charms along the way – most notably my 10% charm, and my 25 pound charm. I’ll run through all of them in another post, but working the plan is totally working for me. I’m down nearly 30 pounds, and I’m completely happy with my progress.
So here’s some weight watchers brain work, chosen at random from the stack of weekly handouts that’s grown much faster than I’ve blogged here…oops.
These questions are from the weekly dated April 30-May 6, “Get in the Groove to Move.”
Choose one new activity to try….
I’m going to be giving the stationary bike a go. My go to cardio is running in the wee hours of the morning, and actively competing with my office mates for miles logges, but when I went to D.C. last week, I got a little too run sightseeing happy and gave myself horrendous blisters (pictures – of the run, not the blisters – coming tomorrow). Running isn’t in the cards for a least the next week, maybe longer. I’m going to put in 30 minutes 3 times this week on the bike whilst trying not to die of boredom.
And if I know me, I should probably invest in a helmet…
Not every post name can be a winner, okay?
Since I really got into the posts on here, I’ve been through a serious real estate roller coaster (and there’s the alliteration I was looking for…..dammit).
I made an offer on a house that was accepted, and so I was under contract. The NEXT day, another newer house on more land, closer to work, with a shop came available, but I was already under contract with the first one, and so I decided that the house with the shop just wasn’t meant for me. I shelled out a few hundred of the best dollars I have literally ever spent (second only to the dollars I spent on gas to leave my ex, probably…) for inspection, and found out that the house was a disaster in a million invisble-to-the-naked-eye-but-probably-going-to-burn-or-fall-down-anyday ways.
And so I was no longer under contract, because there was NO way I was signing on for that mess. Immediately regrouped with my agent, and got an appointment to go see the house with the shop. Got a call on the way there, and it was under contract to someone else. Went to see the neighborhood, and fell in love. Big mistake. Big. Huge.
Put a backup offer in, but was already like seventeenth in line. BUT! There was another one in the same subdivision – FOR SALE! More land! Bigger shop! We made an appointment, and like clockwork, it went under contract before I could get in to see it…again. Seriously started to feel like I was cursed.
And so I basically took a month off from house hunting. It’s such a fun process the first few days, but it starts to suck the life out of you. I started considering houses I didn’t even like in the name of…I don’t know….winning? It was dumb how my ego got caught up in it all.
So then one morning, I’m casually browsing Zillow with my morning cup, as we do in our office (3 out of 4 are house hunting now. I’m such a trendsetter). Anyway, came across the cutest brick ranch in Tennessee, where I’d been intentionally NOT looking because of property taxes. Sent it to my lender to get a quick idea of my monthly payment, and was pleasantly surprised to see it well within my budget. Got an appointment, saw it, made offer, offer accepted, and now, I’m under contract again. I’m carefully NOT celebrating until I close this time – I feel like I learned my lesson.
Here’s my two favorite parts though – beautiful yard with lots of room for my new shop, and this kitchen (which I’m already making plans to upgrade).
Stay tuned, more updates to follow!
It’s amazing how fast my blog became a meme repository. But this week’s the week that changes…I know for sure, because I already scheduled posts.
Look out world, I’m back in the game! Yeah, that’s one of my favorite movie quotes of all time.
But this one is me today….
Updates incoming on car/house/life, but that’s all for now!
If you’re familiar with the Weight Watchers program, some of this will be redundant for you. I apologize (not really, there’s the door…). Each week if you attend in person Weight Watchers meetings, they hand out a “Weekly.” It’s a brochure with updates from the company, the focus of the week’s meeting, and random coupons for “Weight Watchers friendly” snacks, etc.
Some meeting leaders fall back on the Weekly pretty heavily to guide their meetings, while others just speak for a moment to whatever the “theme” is, before moving on to group talk, recognitions, etc. I actually really prefer this less-scripted, more community based approach. It does mean, though, that each week, I wind up with a Weekly full of unanswered “fill in the blank” type questions and things to ponder. I can’t help but think that the head honchos at Corporate wouldn’t spend the time and money to print the Weekly if those questions and talking points hadn’t proven to be useful, so I figured I would use my space here to go through them each week. I’m hoping it will keep me on track, and keep my head in the game. I’ve got a few to get caught up on, so I’m going to probably double them up for a while, before moving to a weekly Wednesday mid-week WW boost post.
Answer this question super quick: Why do you want to lose weight?
I want to look better.
Go into detail: What does that look like to you? How would your life be different?
For me, it will be me being more comfortable in my own skin, especially in work situations.
Make it yours: Using your answers from steps 1 and 2, as yourself again, “why do I want to lose weight?” Take your time, and frame your answer in a specific, personal way.
For me, losing weight is an external step towards internalizing some serious self confidence. Whether I want to admit it or not, how I look has a huge impact on how I feel about myself. It’s not nearly as much about being “healthy,” as maybe it should be. I know that, especially in professional situations, I feel better and more confident in my own skillset when I look slimmer. I know this because I’ve habitually yo-yo dieted, for my entire adult life. I’ve been more successful thinner, and not necessarily because of what I look like, but because I carry myself and behave differently when I feel better about my appearance. To add to that, I’ve been tasked with doing YouTube videos for work, and that’s made my super aware of my own appearance. I can see the losses and gains, even when they’re “minor.” In that case, I guess it’s really important to me to look good in a t shirt for YouTube. Little bit weird to see in writing.
So, what’s your why?
Richard Petty made my meme week…
When I was growing up (and probably now, haven’t recently tested that theory), when my sister and I would say we couldn’t find something, my mother would say, “If I find it, do I get to hit you with it?!” It’s amazing how we were able to locate so many things in the following moments…
Love this one.
Timely and politically memey…
Shout out to Scary Mommy for this one. Ran across it on Facebook today, and I am not a mom, yet this woman gets me.
If you’ve somehow missed the saga of Brad’s Wife, get caught up. I mean, where have you been this week?!
I feel this meme so hard. Thankfully, no longer immediately relevant to my life…
I’m NOT asking for a friend. When you see me, just know that my hair is a dirty illusion. All about that trash panda life.
This is hilarious if you’re from/living in the South. If you’re not, I’d imagine it’s not that great. Sue me.
Big stuff coming this week – stay tuned. Going to have an update on the car, and hopefully a solid weight drop at meeting come Saturday – been working my face off prepping and planning to make it happen. Plan the work, work the plan.
Got a favorite meme this week? Link it in the comments!
This insane week finally drawing to a close means settling down long enough on a Saturday morning to put some thoughts down. Here’s three things that have been rolling around in my brain this week…
“I don’t identify with this in the least.
For me, the desire to be better, to leave an impact (however slight), to improve in some way, drives me to take on each day after the next. Complacency, for me, is the first step towards a backslide- a slippery slope. For me. Every day I wake up and I have a purpose and I am aware of it, I strive towards fulfilling it, and I am I satisfied if I feel I haven’t put my best effort towards it.
I have an able body and a knowledgeable mind, a loving heart and a desire to share these blessings however they can be of use to someone else. Of course this sounds conceited, “look at all I have to share with the world!” But that is not my intention. I have spent so much of my life learning, and continue to do so daily. There’s no reason not to share what I have learned to help others better themselves through knowledge. I am lucky enough to have had the opportunity to build a strong body that is capable of many things, and there is no reason not to use it for more than moving iron plates. I have the capacity to feel deeply, to love, and empathize and these are qualities wasted if kept to myself.
So I don’t find myself in any part of this. I’ve not yet encountered a limit to the things I can accomplish, so I’ve not yet found a reason to stop trying to improve myself, and I think that actively seeking these limitations and “accepting” them would cause me a lot of internal strife- I’m not sure I could find the drive to get up each morning without knowing there was some end goal for bettering myself in that period.”
I agree with her. So. Hard. Not because I’m some accomplished powerlifter/figure competitor (no seriously…have you checked out that blog yet?), but because my body is strong, my brain is powerful, and like she said, I’ve yet to find my own limits. Why would I stop when I know I have more to bring the world?
I work each week to help empower young, intelligent college aged women through my volunteer work, and I strive to break stereotypes every single day of what it means to be a young woman in business (and behind the wheel of cool cars). I’ve worked to get to a place of independence, and work every day to improve myself intellectually, professionally, and yes, through diet and exercise. I know that I come from a place of privilege, in that I have the option to even consider these things, and I think that’s incredibly relevant.
Be strong, be smart, be more than mediocre when you’re blessed with a place in this world that allows you to do so. There’s no reason to lower the standard for those that follow.
I hate that so much. Usually, I’m super careful about how I eat on Fridays because my body is so sensitive to sodium intake. I’ve seen my weight fluctuate 6-8 pounds overnight because of it. Last night after work, one of my coworkers was playing music at a local burger place (LBOE here in Memphis, and if you’re curious, it was awesome), and after the week I’d had, I was happy to enjoy a burger, fries, and 2 delicious (Wiseacre Ananda) IPAs. I hadn’t had a beer in so long. It seemed worth it; it actually still does, but I’d be lying if I said it didn’t mess with my psyche to not see a loss on the scale this morning…for the first time since I got back on Weight Watchers.
So, struggle fest internally there.
The worst part of it is that I’m usually SO motivated by my own losses, that it makes it really easy to fall off the wagon after a (likely to be gone next week and thensome) gain. So, this is the part where I have to remind myself that it’s the long game that counts, and Saturday morning weigh ins are just a piece of that puzzle.
Any good plans for the weekend?
I’ve mentioned the Mustang a few times in passing, but sit down kids, it is story time. In the future, I’m going to do more in depth information on car projects as they pop up, but for now, I’m going to bring you up to date on the whole project (and all its pertinent drama), past and present….
I originally got the Mustang as a “gift” from my ex-boyfriend in Southern California. It was built from a bare block next to a V6 Mustang to a running, driving Hot Rod Power tour car in the span of about a week.
After we got back from Power Tour, it sat and was “no longer running,” though it ran just fine the last time I saw (slash drove) it. When he bought me out of our co-owned house in California (a terrible process, 0/10, do not recommend), I took the car as a partial settlement for the house. The car was to be running and driving, and shipped at his expense. Finally, I gave up and did what I had to do to get my hands on a severely overvalued, not running, not driving car, shipped at my own expense.